somewhere in the northwest, 4 paths crossed, each starting at various points
in time and place. From this convergence emerged a common experience and
amidst this madness we gaspnot for air but for a
chance to divulge the happiness, sadness, excitement, and fear of life.
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Friday, July 11, 2003
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Argh, honestly, I should not be up and walking considering the state I'm currently in. Why I am blogging is beyind me, but then again, my brain seems malfunctioning (maybe dead?) also alors je ne suis pas certaine ce que je fasse. En tout cas, I am in dire (physical) pain. Just for the record, this is not PMS-time, so don't even be thinking that!
Quoi faire? I'm super hungry but seeing how I'm the pig I am, there is no food left in my house and I don't think I can make it safely to the grocery store and back. Maybe I should just go back to bed. But I'd have to get up and face the world eventually (by 5pm at least). I'm only awake because I'm in absolute agony. Having gone to bed with the sun risen at 8 something (yes in the morning), I'm amazed that I'm even up. Funny how the people we care for most, human beings who have been our source of comforting joy despite XXXX (4 letters), those that I would be willing to sacrifice so much of myself and my life for (I owe them this much) - okay well maybe I'm only talking about one person...But I wonder how I could ever look into his eyes again with the same admiration and affection as before. I'm such a terrible person, to have said all this, not even knowing what I want. Not that he did anything "wrong" but how could things have changed so fast? ....
What more can I do now, but pray, and hope ... if not that all things will be restored, then, for the best...Should I call? Wait? I need a life-advisor. Good-day world!
