somewhere in the northwest, 4 paths crossed, each starting at various points
in time and place. From this convergence emerged a common experience and
amidst this madness we gaspnot for air but for a
chance to divulge the happiness, sadness, excitement, and fear of life.
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Saturday, March 15, 2003
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So here I am, blogging at AM's request... (only because that girl does *not* pick up her phone when I call)!
Hm, well I am actually at HOME now..HOMEhome, as in far out boonieland pomo. Went shopping at Lougheed after school yesterday, went home to get dressed, then met up with some old friends to just *chill* till 2am-ish. Good times, just like the times of days gone by. Dropped somebody off at the airport this morning, bought gifts, paid overdue tuition (oops), panicked over my bank account statements, mixed feelings about midterm/assignment marks (micb 202, ihhs 300 assignments 6&7)..shopping spree! I feel so guilty buying all these totally un-necessary material assets (clothes) today, for example I bought this gorgeous tan/beige patterned asymetrical dress, but *when* will I ever wear it? And more importantly, when will I ever look good wearing it? [Believe me, developed photos today. Never realized my tan lines were so obvious :( in a bad way]. But besides all that, what the heck am I doing spending money promoting something so superficial for myself when children in far off nations are dying trying to feed themselves while the "lucky" ones slave away so that I can just "not look like such a bum" (as my dear always trendy friend puts it).
This week is a record for amount time spent talking to family. Must have faith, I am blessed indeed! Argh, just over one hour to prepare for tonight. What the heck am I going to wear?
So, I should be going to bed. But... just read AM's blog, felt inspired (and thought it was funny) so here I am. Yup yup, so that meeting was a kick and a half... good thing we found things to amuse ourselves with, all the while, still paying good attention though, mind you (well, for the most part). Anyway I have another year of this ahead of me, perhaps I will learn to appreciate it?
MSN, MSN, MSN, seriously AM and Gina, you guys must be saving SOO much time! I have spent the last hour procrastinating by talking on MSN and playing minesweeper. Argh, I have all this English stuff to do... grrr!
Ok, ok, enough with the scattered thoughts. I'm off to bed, I guess I'll just stress out tomorrow instead of doing work tonight. Sounds like a plan, albeit a not very good one.
Fly me to the mooonnnnnnnnnnn....and let me play among the stars......
Perhaps I'd be happier there.
Just as I finished writing that, received another e-mail from somebody with the following message:
"The circumstances of life, the events of life, and the people around me in life, do not make me the way I am, but reveal the way I am" [Dr. Sam Peeples].
Strange timing-wise, especially to have ended today of all days.
Argh. So, my big huge goal of 5 hours of school work came back to bite me in the ass. Yup, so it was obviously way too big, because I guess sometime during the night, I subconciously decided that since I can't do it all, I don't need to start it any time soon. So yeah, I have done some English, but nothing else... oh wait, I did some clothing order stuff... aaaahhhhhhh. Why do I have no attention span? Alright, I need to set more reachable goals from now on. Okay, enough rambling for now, need to actually do some work. I must remember those words of wisdom from my blog below...
Hello People... so, life is much much less stressful. Last week, whoa, that was pretty horrible, the referendum, elections, a midterm and a big paper due? I survived! Well, I guess it actually depends on how you define survive, if I failed my midterm, did I survive? Oh well, dum dee dum, whatever.
Gina and her camera! It's so funny when all these pictures turn up of yourself but can't remember when they were taken because the photographer is so sneaky. Don't stop Gina, your picutres are a "thumbs up" (I'm using phrases from people now... AM and Serena - "thumbs up" and the "dum dee dum" above from Gina).
So, my goal for today, well, the goal I made at the beginning of the day, is to do 5 hours of school work - 2 hours of Calculus, 1 hour of Physics, 1 hour of Chemistry and 1 hour of English. Of course, it is now 5:41pm, and if I were to start now without taking a break, helping with dinner, or eating dinner (all of which I must/have to do) I wouldn't be done till close to 11pm. So... I think I must make some new more attainable goals. It's not like I've been wasting time today anyway, I didn't get home till about 4:45pm, so I've only had an hour break. Anyway, my friend was telling me that our Math prof told him that "you can't get any where without successes along the way." And then my friend added that "the idea being to set smaller goals so you can meet them and feel good and move on... rather than a huge one that you will be overwhelmed by." Words of wisdom folks, words of wisdom.
On another note, I read AM's exec report in the 432 today. Good stuff, good stuff. It's great because I understand where a lot of it is coming from =), hehe.
Alrighty, time to do something productive. Oh oh, another thing, I am going to the AMS meeting tomorrow! Yay! I get to hang out with AM and other cool people. Hopefully they will all be in *good* moods, hehe, get it, get it?
It's been a while. Well not quite, but it feels as if an eternity has passed between the last time I've updated. Anyway I am supposed to be recovering from the shock (negative) of my midterm results for Phys Chem and Health. Other than that significantly important detail, life seems fairly decent outside of school. People are doing what they've always dreamed of and going places in their lives. Haha, reminds me to remain hopeful with respect to my own life..(it's the little things, right chengz? looooooveeeee ya!). But no matter, I've an immense of faith......
Blessings often arise from depressive/hopeless/helpless situations. After IHHS, I was visibly distraught when leaving the building (not the lecture hall itself). On my way out, I spotted a hotguy in Agora cafe-thingy :) It was bmw hotguy who alternates between that car and an audi (both his own) and lives in a hugeass house with two full-time servants (this is Canada, mind you). Well being the nice guy that he is (caring personality, another thumbs up! I'm so over-infactuated!), and observing my distress, we then proceeding to conversing for quite a long time. He offered me lunch too :) I'm completely delirious.
Talking to my cousin is a complete a let-down to possibly the highlight of my entire week, no wait, make that month since my abstention from junk food prevents me from happiness in that department. Why can't I have cooler cousins anyway (like AM and Nini do)? *pouts*
